Friday, February 24, 2006

22feb-24feb 2oo6
short time frame; unforgettable days. =)

yupp. 3 days of adam khoo workshop. ramesh, amin, wayne, they were the fun trainers we had. ni mama, the silly group name of ours and was led by none other than our dearest enthu and responsible jingni. (: did all the silly forfeits like the hamster and chihwahwa dances. damn it.

first day was a whole lot of laughter. :D

second day was a whole lot of laughter + a whole lot of tears too. ramesh started on the life journey and all the philosphy thinkings, which im rather interested in. he shared with us his late teacher and his late grandma. if anyone was to think that it's just 2 events that he was talking about; you are utterly wrong. these 2 events are enough to make you cry like a pile of shit, if you were someone like me.

yupp, i cried, said to be the loudest one somemore. -.- he taught us visualisations. imagine your loved ones being pulled away, slipping away from your own hands. i couldn't help with the tears and sniffing. the man in my family is not in good health, he has all the sickness that most singaporeans have. hepB, high blood, diabetics, etc. moreover, he's in his late fifties.

if he was someone who was positive towards his life, i wouldn't have felt so much. but the sad thing is, he isn't. he kept saying that there isn't anything for him to look forward to in life. his health is deteriorating, his life long career has wind up. he takes it out on us. yes, he meant for our own good, i know. but he, being a explosive person, when met up with my explosive and impulsive brother and sister, i know they wouldn't end their conversation without shouting at each other, especially when it's on the buying on cars.

we haven't been gg for family lunch on sundays for a long time. he just gave up on his life, he sees no point in it anymore. he just go gambling whole day long. what else can i say. moreover im not one who talks alot at home.

.....

whatever it is.

parents came for the closing ceremony today. many went up to share, including me. jasmine went up alone. hers made me teared alot. puiyen, brenda, lixuan and me went up together after a few more. i don't know what silly things have i blabbered out there, i just know im just crying stupidly there again, which taken up so much of the time.

but guess what? i've given out my pioneer hugs to the others today. first was tzer, who self-claimed to be not a bodily person, hugged me!! omg!! haha. don't worry, im not one myself either. next it was with lixuan, then it was with my irreplacable partner, joycelyn. hahah. and then, it was with tzer again!!! ((((:

as much as i hardly say these mushy stuff to people around me..

I <3 MY PARENTS
I <3 MY SISTER
I <3 MY BROTHER
I <3 JOYCELYN
I <3 TZER
I <3 LIXUAN
I <3 BRENDA
I <3 JASMINE
I <3 ALL MY PRI/SEC FRIENDS

thanks for everything. (:

10:46 PM